Gone Written June 2011

That place was dark and scary and so far from you

The salty air made me more and more confused

Did me leaving kill our pace?

I wonder now, when I havent seen your face

A year we have been and I want to go more

I miss you so bad and I left that shore

For you? Did you even know I came back?

Where are you now?!

Time is what we lack. 

I’ll run away, only if you’ll be there

I’ll stop and pray, only if god would let me be my prayer

Gone, but I came back you see

Now want you please come home to me?

Dont pretend you dont hear that…..that sound

Of that pretend train track

You’re workin hard and so am I

Hot summer sun cant even keep my eyes dry

Counting down days, Ive lost track

Your mouth fast with your mountain tact

Whats going to happen when we fight like that again?

Whats going to happen if I stray away again?

I wont. I wont. I wont.

Fuck I came back, where are you now?

Way up there, not here….again

Haven’t made you smile since I dont know when.

Are you smiling? I cant see?

Are you up there missing me?

Things are on hold in this life of mine. 

I can’t figure out if we will ever have the time.

I want you here, I want you now, dont you want that too?

I believe you love me, but do you have better things to do?

Don’t you dare get angry when I barely talk

Its hard to do when your time is all caught

I miss before when I brightened up your life, when you would tell me that you were thankful I was there

you havent said that since the snow was everywhere.

Its so hot and stagnant right now, Im all alone in my own hometown

I love you more than words could say, I need you more, but you always go away.

You say there is nothing that you can do

You say you love me, and I always say me too

But it hurts everyday, do you hurt when I walk away?

I NEVER have, I always stand still, wondering if you will turn around and for once not go.

Here I sit alone today, tonight and tomorrow will just be the same,

Four more days and even then you’ll make me wait, Im so tired baby boy, how much more can we take?

Love overcomes in songs at least…

I want my life to be yours in the same

Ive been too scared to say any of this, so me you can blame

I always will anyway…