it takes a lot to bring a woman like me down. i never knew that until recently. I dare anyone to ever make me feel weak again. I dare any man to ever think for a second he has me. I cant be owned again; I wont. I have so much respect for a man that treats his woman like he cant live without her. I have been waiting on that feeling my whole entire life, and by god when it happens I know that all this has been worth it. but this isnt about a man. this is about a woman, who has found this incredible self worth that i never even knew i had. Ive been through the feeling of someone not wanting you anymore, time and time again. but this time was so different. I have never given a man my all. I had never had so much love or trust or just pure joy with another person in my life as I did with him. I have never felt so UNDERSTOOD. but when that goes away, all you have is yourself. Ive learned to be the kind of woman that ive admired my whole life. Being broken and destroyed truly changes a person. I have been so transformed into this ball of fire. I feel like I could take on anything, I feel like there is a fire and strength and a passion in me that is free to see what the world has to offer me. There is not a thing to tie me down, and there never will be again. I have new standards. I have new motivations. The world is more than he gave me, or thought it could be. It is not about waiting, and hoping. It is about craving and accomplishing. I just feel so reinvented and there is no way I could ever express in words how strong I feel. How proud I am that ive taken the words of the strong generations of southern women in my life and family and have conquered the knife that has been in my heart for weeks. I was confined to this bed. I was so dead, I didnt take a deep breathe for 3 weeks. I couldnt. I couldnt even drink water some days from my throat being in a constant knot. You truly have no idea what you are capable of until you hit bottom. and right now, I am ALIVE.