November 2008
9 posts
We all want to runaway.
How pathetic is it, that a perfectly happy life that you have made, can suddenly be rippped away from you because of one situation. It happens to everyone. I know what its like to focus all of your energy and time and hopefullness into one thing, and when all of that goes unnoitced and that single thing crashes to the ground, so does your life. Dont think I dont know. Its happened to me in a...
If I could shed my leaves
I think I could finally blossum. Everyday full of something new? The trees loose all of thier leaves and new ones will grow, right? I wonder If that mighty oak is ever scared that maybe if every leaf is gone, none will return. I get scared. I get sick inside when I think about this season that is upon me, this turn of the earth that I am forced to deal with. Every shattering cold morning, and...
relapse
Talking to you is like talking to a brick wall. I hate you so much. You have no idea, how much hate boils up inside me for you. Just when things start going good, I have to see your face. You have no idea how easy you have it. And how easy I make your life. Me tell you I love you? Hah. I sometimes wish you knew the hate that you cause. I wish I could stop. i cant lie to myself. You have no idea...
I have no idea what to write.
I have no idea what to say.
I have no idea.
I have no idea how to balance.
I have no idea how not to fall.
I have no idea as to how I am not supposed to fall for you.
I have no idea why we are so opposite.
I have no idea.
I wish you had some kind of idea.
I do know that you in my life would probably save me.
You have no idea.
nono n o n o non on on no non nononoo on on...
Kyndal Rebekah Auten
more like
Confused, completely alone, mess of a human being.
I better start learning.
A couple days ago I used the analogy of feeling like I am falling of off a cliff, then my mom said something to me, completely out of the blue. so perfect. I wa meant to hear it.
When God leads you to the edge of the cliff, trust Him fully and let go. Only 1 of 2 things will happen. Either He’ll catch you when you fall, or He’ll teach you how to fly!
I better start learniing how to...
Clausterphobia
I feel like I am in a box. Just big enough for me to turn around. But it doesnt matter because with each turn there are just identical walls waiting for me to face them. I dont know who to talk to anymore. I dont know what I want.
But I sure as hell no what I dont want.
Tell me where they went.
Colder and colder the shadows get with each passing day. Soon it will be time to give thanks, and then the winter solace. Tell me how far have we really come? So far as to the point where we are all hanging from a cliff one finger holding on. Im ready to let go. This terrain was never good enough for you? Why is it so hard now, to be with people and be happy. Why is it so hard for you and everyone...
I cant take anymore.
I cant take anymore of anything. of anyone.
i hate my life right now. i hate that at the end of the day no one is who they say they are. grow the fuck up. your annoying as hell. your a liar. you can be...